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Wednesday, February 24, 20108:41 AM
mood : fight the future - ttatwearth : even if i tell u, u couldn't touch me.
hi, actually i have some test for costume tomorrow, but i decided to study tomorrow morning because i couldn't focus on what im doing right now. we just recorded something for something that actually fun but also important. confused? not gonna tell you soon :)
wow, i feel that time goes faster and faster each day i passed. what i concern more is about myself. not being purposely put my ego first, but i do. i hope i can graduate on dec 2012 (i hope so, wishin luck for me!) and do something or go somewhere. somewhere where i can meet new people, new stuffs, and new atmosphere.
people come and go, people say hello and bye, people hugs me and only remember my name, people stays people. some people are curious about what,who,when,and where bout around me but some people just stay true for just keep it inside.
you want to know me more but when you know me more you'll be disappointed, that i'm not as you have expected. i don't create rainbow on your days, i'm not a star for your night, or a cheerleader for your dark sides. i am 'me'. emotionless :p
oh well, that's just some random freaky thoughts. back to reality... i wanna take an english course, intensive. i feel my grammar is poor,my vocabularies are limit, and i couldn't write something in a proper way. How can i fight my future if my english is dead as a dead fish (wth it's not even an idiom).... on the other side, i have to take a course for my third language (have to) either chinese, french, or spanish. help me. como estas? ni hao ma? annyeong hasseyo? piye kabare?apik-apik tenan yoh, mabuhaii!,aloha!.
-______________________________- fuck.
remember, life is just too fuckinly short to waste. i made mistakes or i will, but i 've learned or will learn from the mistakes. ohyaaaaaaaaaa, somehow people who know me in person got shocked when they read my blog. don't get too deep ya, somehow too...i wrote what i wanted to write about...sometimes i re-read what i wrote but mostly i just let it published without thinking the deep effects of it. i could be evil, a bitch, or be a pure javanese person, sometimes i do care sometimes not. Istilahnya abg labil bgt gue hehehe.
well see ya! just love me and i love you back :) nenna.
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cuz no one thing can bring me down.
Monday, February 22, 20102:40 AM
mood : feelin so good -- olivia ong earth : right before i'll fly to my town, S'pore.
i miss the taste of red wine that i sipped last year in LA after my dance performance on my slutty makeup, with you who wore a bright sunny pulpy orangey in the darkness of night. i didn't trip or wasted, but drunk because of your spotlight.
nenna. Labels: somethingthaticouldntwriteon
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somethingthaticouldntwriteon : all the words in italic, i made it by myself.
Saturday, February 20, 20109:19 PM
mood : berlin - the trees and the wild. earth : where i left my footprints.
you know i hate rain. perhaps, hate is the worst word to describe on how i dislike rain. i feel rain brings gloomy and soften my mood. i hate when something could soften my mood, i am tough. i need umbrella to prevent the rain and pretending that nothing could touch my mood, even soften it.
nenna.
ps: check for berlin-ttatw lyrics! so d e e p n t o u c h e s m y l u n g s and it makes me hardly to breathe. (: Labels: somethingthaticouldntwriteon
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i would never leave you but i would
Friday, February 19, 20109:16 PM
mood : i would never - mocca ft club8 earth : balcony and hello sun.
In order to reshape my belief, i need drugs to convince me on how i don't live in a dream.
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Thursday, February 18, 201010:44 PM
mood : malino - the trees and the wild.
you are too nice......way too nice.it's way too nice...and makes me afraid.
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imysm
9:25 AM
mood : bcb-afgan earth : down to fall, wall to flown.
writing is the best remedy.
i thought i am alone, a loner in this world. a person who dramatizes all the little things n beg for people's attentions. not until i realized that people directly sent, said, wrote, told to me : i miss you.
for me, i miss you is not an ordinary sentence. not only from a boy or boys, girls, family, friends, enemies, or monsters but also from everyone who actually said it from the bottom of their heart. i miss you, a simple sentence that made from 3 words. it needs time, and willing to spend their time to write i miss you for me.
i miss you could be interpreted as i miss you when you made your failure jokes, i miss you because i miss to fight with you, i miss you because thanks for always be mine, and i miss you because i need you when our homework's not done yet. in my case, people usually said i miss you because of your craziness. and i feel, i miss you is a gift. i like gifts.
i'd prefer when someone says, i miss you than i love you...like i'd prefer when someone wants a big hug than a hot kiss.
tonight, i would say that i miss you too. eh not 'you' loh, you could be universal. i feel blessed to have everybody that said i miss you to me, if i could tie all of you and make a bouquet....i'll put it in my room... and every time i feel down, i want to smell a bouquet of mine.
thevoiceinsidemyhead, nenna.
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free :)
Monday, February 15, 20108:16 AM
you don't know how it feels when finally i could say that i am free from what bothered me before. through pain, through memories, through whatsoever that reminds me of you, now i could move. why do i have to tortured my mind and soul if you just like to do it so. why do i seem beg you to look back at me though i know you used me only for ran away from your broken hearted. i am 19 yrs old and i still have a lot of times to do whatever i like and i want,to choose and to throw. i know you will come to me when you are not satisfied with what you've got. and hello i'm not your paper plane, you fold me, shape me, and blow me 'til i don't know where i landed. however, i would not call that you n i are stupid, we just got trapped in a phase where you n i only could remain as friends. don't blame the time or need another time, i'm not chasing the time. thankies for these years, lega ya lega akhirnya bisa menghela (: and i will not delete me/you songs, it keeps shuffle through my pod. i dont hate you, i dont blame you, i'll give you warm hugs whenever you need my open hands and shoulder to cry on...but, i have my own principles. i leave you as 'you'. and i walk away from the old me. teehee :)
hanya kau : the adams. saltwater room : owl city.
ps: ga bisa di delete,lagunya enyak-enyak soalnya hahaha :p
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cold
Saturday, February 13, 201011:10 AM
mood : mrs. cold -- kings of convenience earth : bedroom with pink hot fuchsia bedspread.
hellowoogie, i know you miss my post,lol. I'm in Jakarta right now. It's Chinese New Year Vacation (also Val's day,but you know me, I - don't- care) and I have to search for 50 different textiles for my textile class. Pretty sad, because for 4 hours in textile store, I only got 26 fabrics. Wish me luck, on finding other fabrics.
I like this quote : I'm child-like but I'm not childish... I found my self fits for this quote, I am 19 years old, still looks and acts like 15 but I think they are the parts of my teenage spirit. I am still looking and roaring for another adventure, I'm not old (yet) nor will old. I will be forever young, I am a worm that likes to eat books. World is toooooooooooooooo early to close her eyes, I just about opened my eyes and start my day.
Lately, I've been thinking to mov-ing on. Move on. M-o-v-e-o-n. For r-e-a-l. For s-u-r-e. I feel, for these past years, why do I have to hide all my feelings toward 'this creature'. Sorry to put 'this creature' instead 'him/you'. Its like, I close my self for the other beautiful things in this world rather than waiting for 'when is the time you'll come back for me'. I am such a hypocrite that demand and spread the lies whenever people ask,"Have you move on already?" but now, I do. Bye, puppy. All the tears are just gone, wait and I'm not even crying baby when I'm writing this. So, sayonara babo-chan. I'll meet you as a very good friend of mine (I will not say,I'm trying because I'm not!), and hello musky dinosaurs out there, it's me a babo brontosaurs hihihi :)
lv, nenna.
ps: xsml is so damn hot fuss, let's go shopping (:
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lullaby
Thursday, February 4, 20108:53 AM
mood : neopolitan dreams -- lisa mitchellearth : my desk.
hellopeople, oh im so bu-sy. I have many things to do : from homeworks, papers, quizzes, cleaning my room because my little friend will come to the town...tomorrow I also have to renew my student pass in immigration, binding my group's research paper, shopping in Ikea tomorrow with my housemates, and lastly if I don't get tired I'll come along to Clark Quay at night (wootwoot!) However, I like my life now. At least, I got many hours to sleep and doing another thang' besides put my full attention in one thing.
I'll come home in Chinese New Year Holiday, yeaa it's like every once a month I went to my hometown but who cares? I like it! meet up mom and dad and Linos and Mbak and Nenek and also my new brother : Iggy, a Boston Terrier puppy. Also, my best girl's b'day is on Feb 14th. No reason to not celebrate it. I don't care about Val's day tho (:
Yeaaa, and also I have new lists for what I WANT SO BAD lately,please fairy God mother~ I'm a good kid :
1. Flea Market. I've been to flea market like forever. I know how to deal with the bargain and forced the seller to fix the broken material. I don't care if I wear thrift clothes, because I am comfortable for what I wear (basically pretty tops and vintage dress). Hope this holiday, I can go to those places. I miss the smells and the dim lights :)
2. Lula Magazine and Elle Girl Korea. My two favorite magazines ever. I've been reading (flipping, scanning) and subscribed for two years and I don't know where to buy that that that magazines in Singapore. I don't care if its expensive, I'm willing to spend my money to get my babies back. I miss my magazines that I left in LA :'(
3. The Trees & The Wild Album, Lisa Mitchell Album, and She&Him Album.
4. Cin(T)a & 500 days of Summer Dvd.
5. Instant back for my Diana F+ camera. It is polaroid, excited?
6. Cheap Monday Blue Jeans. I don't have any denim jeans because my hip is getting wider :D, period.
7. Fred Perry sneakers for women. Classy and fits my dresses,skirts perfectly.
8. Adobe Photoshop and Microsoft for Mac. School's always cool.
I'll search it one by one, even if it takes sooooooooooooo loooooooooooooong. I think my fairy God mother is sick now, I have to fulfill my wishes by myself...or do I need to call my Eyang Bakrie? hahahahahaaa (:
am going to sleep guys, tomorrow will be a hectic pathetic day! kisses on cheeks, Nenna.
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