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can nenna speaks today?
Saturday, January 30, 20109:46 AM
mood : Irish girl - The Trees and The Wild.earth : lo-hi sci-fac,s'pore is in d front!
hellomonsters, how are you? a standard question but I do really mean it. I'm on my pms cycle, if you guys don't know what pms is (not penyakit menular sexual!, K) better ask your girls about it. So, if you see me around with this upside down mood, better watch out. A sheep with lion aura inside. A firecracker with a long rope to explode.
Well, but so far I am ok, not to mention that sad, lebai2, over-laughed, also over-cried every time I mentioned about 'you', I AM guilty,I AM sorry and hope you forgive me. Shopping is a true real therapy, not hot chocolate or chips. Am craving for all those new re-invented lomo (toy cameras). Better visit this ---> CLICK!CLICK!CLICK! for a mini store full of those toycameras in S'pore :) I just bought an underwater camera for S$25--such a good deal, but idk for the quality,haven't tried it yet. I miss my toy cameras back home, even my polaroid camera. I am not expert on a proper technical dslr thingy (hope I can learn it one day ^^) but so far am satisfied with my digital cameras also the lovely to play toy cameras. And my mom wud say, "Not that cameras again,the cheapo plastic camera that you bought for your own sake!" hahaha.
.................oh, I forgot.....I just showed my housemates (apartmentmates in my case) last night about my old videos in LA. I never thought that I would show them my traditional dance old videos on Ka Dety's youtube account....malu tau hihi, but I guess I'll show it to you (: This is Yapong dance from Jakarta-Indonesia (not Jaipong), we performed for Indo day (: (you guys also can check another videos on her acc-- see me!see me!I did saman,batin kemuning,fash show,etc hehe narcism mode on)
I am in love with Indonesia so much, though I was not born in Indonesia but I have rich cultures of Indonesia in my blood. I am so proud of who I am and where I came from. I live in d globalization era but I have to act local and think global-y. When I was kid, I didn't ask my mom for Barbies but I wanted a couple of Wayang Golek (and it turned terrereret magic spirit trapped inside terereretetet), My grandma gave me her Java's signature jewelry, My grandma from my dad's side gave me her Batik Jambi for me, my dad brought me to watched magical Kecak dance and Debus performance, I watched Barney but I also watched Unyil,Keluarga Cemara, and Kring-kring olalala, I read Anandale's bulletin but also my parents gave me Majalah Bobo. Balance.
I am not perfect for my Indonesia's bank of dictionary (maps, provinces, dances, clothes, etc) but I want to know. At least I could explain to my high school mates where's Indonesia and what happens there,the myths and the facts (and street culture also cool indie bands--as my friends said to me hehe). Come on, I already know you will say that I am so immature or 'sok tau' but there's always another 'but'. If is it not us, who else? Our generation is already contaminated with westernized thingy and it is not that wrong .... (it is not that wrong if you are not completely forget your own cultures) but do you hope for a better Indonesia that you are (will) so proud of? start by loving who you are and where you came from, since then I wish for another hope that we are (will) the ones who can change Indonesia for an apple of eye in the world's view.
wew, I do really enjoy writing this. Please don't be ignorant or not appreciate of what Indonesians have done so far, we have smart-creative-innovative people there, we have pure hearts there, we have d strongest bond relationships and love towards each others there, we are one. Diversity in unity, bhineka tunggal ika. Say hello to Indonesia (:
love, Nenna.
ps : man, you should check The Trees and The Wild, seriously. Am writing this while listening to their songs and what else can I say, their songs are my top charts in my ipod now (: thanksss. Labels: moi
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got emotion and we wont stop
Tuesday, January 26, 20108:26 AM
mood : burning - thewhitestboyaliveearth : wherever you go (macam lagu ya)
hello people, Assalamualiakum--salam sejahtera :) Pada kenjen sama postingan saya ya? Aduh maklum maaf ya, pulang sekolah asik nyari makan. Kan target menggendutkan badan 2010! Apalagi ada yg menyemangati kalau gw terlihat apik jikalau berbadan sehat! baiklah mas,akan saya laksanakan!bukan demi mas sih, demi saya juga -,- (playback : demi kau dan si buah hati...krik-krik crunchy kriuk garing kreppsh zzz -,-)
ok, im not trying to be funny or entertain y'all but this mind needs a media to paint the stress n relieve d pain.
dalam seminggu ini...gw menemukan byk hal yg omg. It might be good, some might be worse. pertama, you will never expect someone become a friend of yours in a certain way. Dalam kasus gw, gw menemukan satu teman ini lewat kejadian 'elus2 dada' hehe. seminggu yg lalu...... gw lagi autis dgn bbm,twitter, dan ipod berisi lagu2 menusuk relung kalbu dr vierra (he-he penting ya gw sebut?) tiba2 dari belakang, "INEZZZZZZZZZSHHHHHHHHH" yak sebutlah nama gw di seantero Raffles -,- gataunya itu si L (cewe yg nge-view kamar kost gw dulu dan ga jadi pindah ke kostan kita, mungkin trauma melihat kamar gw haha~)..... usut punya usut, dia masih inget jelas bgt sama gw dan, dia nge add fb gw (tanpa gw tau krn gw suka acc acc saja :p maaf cici) jadi dia tau aktifitas gw (yg gw bingungin kok cici L bisa tau fb aku ya? :p) trus berceritalah dia dengan riang gembira dan ngenalin gw ke teman2nya (FYI, cici L itu major interior design di Raffles, oh no wonder =3) yg bikin gw kaget waktu dia ngenalin gw ke temannya "Aku tuh biasanya suka lupa sama org, nama atau muka pokoknya lupa...tapi sejak pertama kali kenalan sama Inez ini aku inget terus, abis kenalannya menarik" OOOOOOOOOOOOKKKKKKKKK, gw baru inget gw wkt itu kenalan di kost sambil malu2 sm cici L krn kamar berantakan (buku2,cat2,BH2 dimana2), buka pintu cuman 5,5 cm, joget2 lompat2 sambil teriak2, "Ahhh cicii jgn masuk ke kamarku" dan muter2 menari2 panik di depan pintu. Wow, i'd never thought that I am so MATURE -,- well done Inez. Yea but after all, she's the nicest friend I've ever met in Raffles :)
Kedua, lo tau kan atau akan tau bahwa unit apartment gw sering di complain sama orang bawah (unit 06-02 fakfak!) krn katanya kita berisik, suka lompat2, dan teriak2 (ngelapornya sampai ke management apartment, dan hampir mau di aduin ke polisi!). Ok gw akuin kita emg heboh dan suka teriak, tapi kita ga pernah sampe selebay apa yg di bilang sama orang bawah...gila psycho kali ya tuh enci2 di bawah, apa halusinasi ya doi? jadi si enci tuh bilang ke security kalo malem2 di unit gw, ada org yg suka skipping (dan dikiranya gue, HELOH DEH badan gw uda kerempeng gini, masak skipping malem2?!), trus nci pernah bilang klo kita lagi packing baju jam 3 mlm, lompat2 indah atau aerobik di kamar Kaerma (sekalian aja enci, lu bilang kita poco2), seret2 kursi, renovasi-lah, trus kita di bilang pelihara gajah. wtf?! serius gw, ga lebay gw. Sekalian aja lo bilang kita punya taman safari! NAH, cici dan koko kost gw tuh kan masih muda dan berjiwa muda sekali. Tadi mereka berdua mempunyai ide yg bikin gw dan temen2 gw ngakak hahahahh. Cici dan koko mau beliin kita sendal2 empuk ala hotel2 gitu...............ahuahahahahaah...........jd biar kita kalau jalan ga bunyi 'lecet' berisik gitu. Kita wajib pakai! hahahahahh gw pikir cici sama koko bercanda, gataunya makin ngakak gw pas koko ngeluarin catatan doi dan nanya ukuran kaki kita masing2!! ahuahahahahahh!! Ko, gw pesen satu yak! yg ada kuping kelincinya....
Ketiga, so far I hv the bitches in d class n I think (still thinking or unsure) that I act like a bitch too. I dont hv to tell you the exactly, but you know.... somewhen you are in the part of them wether you like it or not, and somewhen you will come home to where your old is, a part of you that you cannot deny. I am living in d both world, it wraps that I have d two sides of me, period. So I am really sorry if you see me beyond the words.
Keempat, berat badan gw naik, sekilo. excited? hellyeaah, another kilos to catch up, baby!
i'll se ya soon pals! nenna.
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Tuesday, January 19, 201010:25 AM
mood : you - ten2fiveearth : "Yaa you haa!there will be shutting down lift tomorrow ha!"
Hello people, mendengar lagu-lagu akustikan tengah malam gini memang bikin merinding. Like this! :) Serasa bagaimanaaaaa gitu, aura2 cinta nan patah hati merusuk ke dalam iga dan raga. Tssah sensitip titip titip yaa. Apalagi sekarang sambil mendengar/membaca/menulis keluh kesah curhat aduhai teman-teman gw, senangnyaaa. Really, I do love to hear 'curhat' not just because I could give em little advice (or shoulder to cry on or at least provide my two ears to listen to em) but also seeking for a lesson of life. Tho' I don't have any experiences in love life but I could know some problems that perhaps face me in d future. For example, in a relationship sometimes they (the couples) do sweat the small things. I thought, why the hell they do complain the small things? just get real! girls complain why the boys don't call em, no news report, etc or boys complain why the girls seem want to know everything or asking random things blablablabaablaaaa....... BUT THEN I just realized, small things are the spices of love :p if is it not happen, then love is just simply flat. Ohh gitu toh ckckck :) baiklah akan saya praktekkan kelak dgn calon saya hehe :)
AAAAAAHHHHHH ngomongin cinta itu memang ga akan ada habisnya. Mau di putar kesini kesana kesitu tetap saja ini itu :) And my friends asked, "And if you always the one whom people are looking at you for their 'curhat' so why and when is the time for you to 'curhat'?" Kadang gw suka curcol kok, kadang sama sahabat, kadang sama org yg random, sering sama blog, sering dipendam juga tepatnya. Dengerin lagu di ipod terus naik bus umum atau MRT (subway) duduk di dekat jendela, udah deh gonjreng-gonjreng itulah saat gw lagi curhat. Kdg sampe mata berkaca-kaca bak sinetron putri huan zou gitu. Makanya jgn heran kalau gw tiba2 ilang di kost-an terus nemuin gw di bus/mrt jurusan antah-berantah, it means gw lagi curhat. hihihihihi.
btw, take a look (taken from Ka Erma's fb--thankyou kak!) : The flipped umbrella part is funny! and yes they are 07-02. A part of my life, where I stay, and where my story begins. ps for you who live in outer space : you successfully torn my heart and now only pieces ~ I wanna feel love again.
cheers, Labels: moi, populo, zing-a-pure
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synthesized n realized houwouoww
Saturday, January 16, 201010:55 AM
mood : Fluorescenses - Stereolab earth : Lion and tiger meet up together.
hello all, yes don't be surprise on how my blog's new looks is so simple yet boring but I finda' it's cute and fresh :) So, how about school? it's good so far and I feel, "Yes, this is what I wanted!" I hope the feels will ever last until I graduate. I had History of costume class and I was surprised on how Puja (My Indian friend) changed her course to Fashion Marketing too :) and yes, we found out that Fashion Marketing suits for us better. The class has 20 to 30 people in one white plain boring seminar room, we learned about Mesopotamia (Sumerian, Persian, etc) and the way they lived. Hmm talking about World History B when I was in High School.
OMG, also talking about financial matters, I guess next month will be a 'hura-hura-foya-foya-astaghfirullah' month. SO, Muse is comin to town right? and I lost the chances for the early bird tickets (bye S$10 off, so long..) Why the heck on earth the tixs are so pricey? oh well, like Jakartan teenagers said, "Muse gitu loh!" hihihi -,-. And Chinese New Year is on Feb 14-15? I guess... and I'll be home around that dates. I'll have a long vacation and I still have Chinese blood/line so, we will visit from door to door to say hello with our relatives who celebrate it. Lovely. Yes, and the airplane tickets are so F mega expensive. Cryin so hard cry cry cryyyyy.
The thing is, I also fall in love with my hedon lifestyle haha-huhu, my oh my why I admit it. I crave (am craving :p) for another pair of Cheap Monday jeans or the Ksubi ones. Yes, I can not wear any jean besides that brands I wrote above. Not for show off or being idealistic :( but can you feel when you are wearing 26 hips with 27/28 long on jeans? so hard to find, it's either too F big for me or too short/shrink for me :( and I found CM and Ksubi (former of Tsubi) fits me perfectly. Taa-daa. Yes, I'm saving my money now for it :) wish me luck :)
And, I'm in love with sneakers. Not the chocolate bars one but the shoes (that's snickers,dumbo!). I just walked by to Rockstar my favorite store, and yea my bloody hell...the shoes were tempting to touch. Vans authentic, Toms, Keds, Converse, and Pointer... I could imagine that the Pointer shoes will match nicely with my dresses or skirts. Flyin together with the green fields as the background (lebay)... I cannot hold my appetite to get 'em (confession of a shop-a-holic....err... well at least better than alcoholic ---a justification for myself ha-ha). Another kaching saving for piggy bank to eats. Here's take a look to drool over :
Sweet!, Nenna. Labels: moi
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Wednesday, January 13, 20109:05 AM
mood : empire state of mind - jayz ft alicia keysearth : unit 07-02
hello people, I'm laying on my bed, you know sometimes I feel I give a touch of 'personal' when I lay down--write my blog on a bed. AAAAAAH fucked up with my grammar above. I'm too lazy too erase it.
Anyway, I have a class tomorrow, History of Costume. Sounds cool right? I hope so, because this will be my first time to attend this class. Ah what a tough decision, from Fashion Designing major to Fashion Marketing major. I even don't have any image of what will Fashion Marketing covers about. In the future, I want to work with people ( I have a boss or bosses) but also I have people to work it out with me ( I am the boss). So double jobs with double sides. I am thinking of being a marketer in Fashion (of course looking at my degree), fashion buyer, fashion stylist for a prestige / independent magazine (not the oh-so-commercial-ones), or simply work anywhere that still related with what I'm doing right now. Also, I want to build up my own label (talking about business hmm hmm) yes, my true dream. I want to have a muslim clothing line. Means, a label that consists the great range of edgy, cool vibe styles for muslim sisters. Or, a kiddy clothing line like what my mom did. I believe in the future, kiddy will dress up like a pro! haha :) ps: I love the way my mom dressed me up when I was kid. Ga norak gitu, I wore pleats skirt (like Burberry ones) with a black cherry cardigan or smocked dress. She never follows the trends, so do I!
btw, let's we become a "kakak asuh" for our "adik-adik", simply just click www.gn-ota.or.id let's we contribute more for others, let's we re-shape a better us for a better future :)
I know, some of you think, why suddenly I want to change this and that...Why I put 'positive' word everytime I blog, why I sounded like 'preaching or lecturing' you, and other why-why-why. Well, these past months I was depressed by what I did. I became a gloomy non talkative person for a week, and it hadn't a reason behind it all. I posted hellish touches for several of my writings and it's not good. I just don't want to keep being an 'old' me...I want to change. And I thought, a positive thinking is the main cause of what a sunshine will shine. I want to shine, and I need a positive input so I can give you a positive output. So.....let u conclude all.
laugh + cherish + positive = friends + lover + good people
ps : This is random, but I want a huge Hello Kitty rug for my room! I saw it in Bugis Junction, and I promised to my self that I'll get it by tomorrow! so cutee~ Oh also, I saw a nice fluffy pillow for the replacement of my fuggly pillow. You know what?! my pillow becomes stinky n squeaky after I left it for a month! Herroow ~
another ps : we are from unit 07-02, which is my apartment number where me and my mates live, wanted to make a fashion blog. YES!! WE ARE BLOGGERS N WE WANT TO SHOW Y'ALL WHAT WE WEAR ON A DAILY BASIS EVERYDAY. Can you imagine, 7 people live under one roof with different personalities that conclude we have different personal styles. Most of us are students from RDI and Lasalle Art major in Fine art, graphic design, fashion marketing, and so on, so we thought, "Why don't we make a fashion blog that publish our styles? well....just for fun though, for our lovely relationships documentation.."-- coming soon! we r on the lab!
chhereeessseee, Nenna.
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Monday, January 11, 20103:14 AM
" Saya orang yang sulit untuk jatuh cinta. Mungkin saya orang yang dingin, keras, kaku, dan payah. Tidak atraktif dan tidak bersinar, tetapi saya memang tidak mudah untuk jatuh cinta. Saya pernah jatuh cinta pada seseorang, dan membutuhkan waktu lama untuk meyakini diri saya bahwa saya bukanlah yang dia cintai, dia cukup memberikan kasih sayang karena rasa sayang itu universal. Itu kata dia, menurut bahasa tubuh dia yang saya tangkap dan menurut percakapan-percakapan panjang saya tutup rapat. Menjadi skeptis, saya. Saya menyukai pria yang idealis. Yang percaya akan kemampuan dirinya sendiri, yang membuat dia berbeda dan berdiri tegak di antara ilalang yang merunduk. Yang membuat sinar temaram teduh di antara sengat sinar matahari yang ada. Saya menghargai orang-orang yang eclectic. Yang mempunyai cara tersendiri untuk menyampaikan pesannya. Pada tujuannya, pesan tersebut mengarah pada satu titik. Dan saya, saksi akan semua lingkungan yang bergerak bebas entah kemana kemari. Ketika saya berjalan, orang tidak perlu tahu akan kemana saya berisitirahat. Dan ketika orang bertanya, saya akan menjawab dengan sepenuh hati walau susah bagi mereka untuk memahami jawaban dari pertanyaan yang mereka ajukan semula.
Terkadang saya sendiri kurang bisa mengerti apa yang saya tahu. Yang saya tahu berubah menjadi ke 'sok' tahu- an, saya melihat dunia fana dan memberontak untuk hal-hal yang tidak sesuai dengan apa yang saya inginkan, atau sesuatu yang menyimpang dari nalar saya. Saya menjadi saya, yang saya banggakan-yang saya benci. Perempuan menjadi lemah karena lelaki. Cinta menjadi kunci permasalahan. Sesuatu yang sesungguhnya simple menjadi akar rumitnya keadaan. Perempuan menangis karena hatinya pilu, perempuan menangis karena ia yang dipilih. Memilih adalah tabu, memilah adalah jalan yang di anggukan.
Dulu, saya heran mengapa semua perempuan menangis karena cinta. Saya tertawa, menganggap mereka cengeng dan saya tegar. Ternyata, saya adalah mereka, saya adalah bagian dari mereka. Saya menangis, pernah. Menangis karena permainan hati--yang dulu saya hindari. Menjadi pribadi yang sama, selaut, searung, sekolam biru yang di saksikan setetes bias.
Dulang, saya berkaca apakah saya lebih dari mereka yang ia tunjuk. Sisi, saya punya banyak sisi yang ia bisa lihat selain dengan kedua matanya. Lunak, saya menjadi tunduk kepada ia. Menjadi saya perlahan menjadi milikmu. Akankah saya berubah demi sepotong asa?
Karena kamu cantik. "
sumpah, gue lupa kalau gue pernah nulis beginian di folder document gue, taun lalu. Biasa, sering bgt nulis beginian terus dibiarin sampai berdebu,terus ada masa nya gw bakal ngetawain tulisan kayak begini. Di bawa enjoy ajalah, krik krik-- fase hidup kan menarik. Waktu itu gue lagi jatuh hati tapi takut untuk jatuh cinta yang pada akhirnya ujungnya bisa di tebak : jatuh sakit.
nna.
ps: ya ya ya suka sm seseorang itu bisa mengubah diri sendiri, walau bilang "u will never find another me" dan kalimat tsb bisa mengandung 2 makna berbeda.
tssahhh beratts :p btw, pic saya yg d atas uhuy bgt ya -,-"
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I heard the bells and the birds tweeted :)
Sunday, January 3, 20108:02 AM
mood : beautiful - l.n.a earth : back to SG.hello people!I just love that song, so pure and fragile. Hey, I'm back to SG, trumphet please. I'm back to be a part of urbanization, syke now I hate the 'urban' word...I miss Indo 'lready, but I have to struggle for 'the bestest' future I'll get. hoaam.I was so happy in Bali. Ey! I have mentioned you already ya? :)Yes, just recap what me and my family did in Bali : we stayed in Ina Hotel (Sanur)because my dad had a meeting there for one day (still worked during holiday? thanks for our beloved country Indonesia), then we stayed in Akasha Private Villa in Seminyak (prettyyy!), Played around in Legian-Kuta, visited my dad's friend land in Sawangan, had an awesome lunch at Alila Villa (heart d place so much!), must have visited Joger "pabrik kata-kata", went to the clubs with my dad (Hu'u Bar, blue eyes ocean), had a rave party with my whole family member haha!! at d beach party Ocean27, ate ate ate at Klapa,Warung Made, and the famous Nasi Pedes, and what else? I forgot....The cool thing was my family time with my dad (even in d last minutes, my dad got a call from mr.H, for the press conference something2,he canceled it!woohoo nice). Hmm btw, I want to put d pics on fb since the resolutions are high to put on here, oh well....but I also hate the fact that fb....mmm never mind.Anw,congratulations for Ka Rani! she got married with Mas Med! YAYY!! I'm so happy!! even I couldn't attend their wed last Friday because it was in LA. Well, Ka Rani wrote that she wanted me to attend her wed, because I was the one who arranged-teased-pushed-joked her with Mas Med (also my tante too), hahaha I'm a good match maker, am I? :) I'm happy for both of you, keep in touch! it feels so good to see that most of my friends are ready to tie the knot this year (2010) in such young ages. They are brave, responsible, caring, and lovable :)And stop asking me when will b my turn haha :) love,Nenna.Labels: moi
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Friday, January 1, 20106:58 AM
mood : Balirun - Fourplay (My favorite Jazz's group)earth : back home from B a l i
hello people :) happy new year 2010! hope your hopes do come true! and I hope mine too. Gosh, only in 5 months I will be 20 years old. A gate of creepy things hyehehe, kidding.
About Bali, this is my second time of this year (this month too exactly) I went to Bali. I found out, Bali is my second home town after Jakarta, or my first hometown? :) It's even I visited Bali often than Jambi or Cirebon. I love Bali no matter what. Not only for holiday, but to heal my heart.
Yes, for me... Bali is not only the place where I could get those entertainments or holiday leisure or shopping spree...but also the place where I could get a pure smile that comes from inner pure heart. My dad said to me that, his soul is always attaches to Bali. For him, Bali is a magical place. Magic, Aura, Soul, Mind, Soothes, and relax = Bali (based on me and my dad's definition).
He (my dad) sat in Bale-bale (like a gazebo?) that's facing the panorama of the sea. It's on the top of the cliff btw. He only sat for couple of hours, sometimes looked up into his blackberry, smoked deeply, looked forward to the waves, felt the breeze...and I don't know how but I can tell that he looks so relaxed. Released his burden on his shoulders and thankful to God for what God provides to us.
And for me, Bali is where I can find another me, a half soul of mine. Every step I take, leads to where my heart looks for. When I was in an unknown land (a land that later, my dad's friend will build a villa--seminyak) I walked peacefully. There were cows, roosters-hens-chickens, local people, wind chime, breeze, and so on. A perfect melody, balanced harmony. A simple scenery, the greatest secret locked in. Questions. You know, in my head-mind I always ask, "God, what's next?, God what's wrong?, God...something is missing from me.., God, do you hear me? I'm here, God, I live with full dreams and reality, but I also feel empty...God, hello?do you still with me? or Am I walk far away from you? I'm sorry..." but in Bali, it seems that those questions were answered automatically. Like, you don't have to answers those questions because your soul is a part of the land.
Spirit and love. Yes, I guess in the future I HAVE to visit Bali regularly. Charge my mind,heart, and soul. Banyak berdoa dan hidup dalam keseimbangan, keselarasan. Banyak cinta dan kasih yang harus di tebar dan diyakini.
muchlove, nenna.
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