hellomonsters,

how are you? a standard question but I do really mean it.

I'm on my pms cycle, if you guys don't know what pms is (not penyakit menular sexual!, K) better ask your girls about it. So, if you see me around with this upside down mood, better watch out. A sheep with lion aura inside. A firecracker with a long rope to explode.

Well,

but so far I am ok, not to mention that sad, lebai2, over-laughed, also over-cried every time I mentioned about 'you', I AM guilty,I AM sorry and hope you forgive me. Shopping is a true real therapy, not hot chocolate or chips. Am craving for all those new re-invented lomo (toy cameras). Better visit this ---> CLICK!CLICK!CLICK! for a mini store full of those toycameras in S'pore :) I just bought an underwater camera for S$25--such a good deal, but idk for the quality,haven't tried it yet. I miss my toy cameras back home, even my polaroid camera. I am not expert on a proper technical dslr thingy (hope I can learn it one day ^^) but so far am satisfied with my digital cameras also the lovely to play toy cameras. And my mom wud say, "Not that cameras again,the cheapo plastic camera that you bought for your own sake!" hahaha.

.................oh, I forgot.....I just showed my housemates (apartmentmates in my case) last night about my old videos in LA. I never thought that I would show them my traditional dance old videos on Ka Dety's youtube account....malu tau hihi, but I guess I'll show it to you (:

This is Yapong dance from Jakarta-Indonesia (not Jaipong), we performed for Indo day (: (you guys also can check another videos on her acc-- see me!see me!I did saman,batin kemuning,fash show,etc hehe narcism mode on)

I am in love with Indonesia so much, though I was not born in Indonesia but I have rich cultures of Indonesia in my blood. I am so proud of who I am and where I came from. I live in d globalization era but I have to act local and think global-y. When I was kid, I didn't ask my mom for Barbies but I wanted a couple of Wayang Golek (and it turned terrereret magic spirit trapped inside terereretetet), My grandma gave me her Java's signature jewelry, My grandma from my dad's side gave me her Batik Jambi for me, my dad brought me to watched magical Kecak dance and Debus performance, I watched Barney but I also watched Unyil,Keluarga Cemara, and Kring-kring olalala, I read Anandale's bulletin but also my parents gave me Majalah Bobo. Balance.

I am not perfect for my Indonesia's bank of dictionary (maps, provinces, dances, clothes, etc) but I want to know. At least I could explain to my high school mates where's Indonesia and what happens there,the myths and the facts (and street culture also cool indie bands--as my friends said to me hehe). Come on, I already know you will say that I am so immature or 'sok tau' but there's always another 'but'. If is it not us, who else? Our generation is already contaminated with westernized thingy and it is not that wrong .... (it is not that wrong if you are not completely forget your own cultures)

but do you hope for a better Indonesia that you are (will) so proud of? start by loving who you are and where you came from, since then I wish for another hope that we are (will) the ones who can change Indonesia for an apple of eye in the world's view.

wew, I do really enjoy writing this. Please don't be ignorant or not appreciate of what Indonesians have done so far, we have smart-creative-innovative people there, we have pure hearts there, we have d strongest bond relationships and love towards each others there, we are one. Diversity in unity, bhineka tunggal ika. Say hello to Indonesia (:

love,

ps : man, you should check The Trees and The Wild, seriously. Am writing this while listening to their songs and what else can I say, their songs are my top charts in my ipod now (: thanksss.