nenna's daily diary
Friday, December 3, 20105:53 AM
hello senor and senorita,
it's been 2 months since my last post. During 2 months, I've countered so many 'highlights' that have successfully changed the 'empire state of mind' (apa sih gue, intinya bgitulah hehe).
Start from my school matters, my relationship towards family and friends, my career opportunity, the trust and the responsibility that the new people expect from me, and the bipbipbip. Iya, Alien gue...
Yes, I hope the next following years, things get better and better. Teman-temanku, sekelilingku memulai hidup baru mereka :) Memang if you whispers to the world,the nature will hug you back. Tafsir sendiri deh kalimat absurd dan ambigu gue hehee.
Probably, I will not that often post on my blog. Not bcs Im that busy hehehe but I somehow just want to manage and clear all the things up. Iyakkk tafsir sendiri lagi deh, gue juga bingung. Hehehe.
So from now on, TTFN :) ta ta for now!
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Saturday, October 2, 201010:06 PM
Hellojellow ppl :)
Test from my phone, I wanna see how does it look a lyk. I already made tumblr BUT I got confused n its not easy as I thought (or it just ME,the gaptek-est person in the world) oh well...
On the other hand, its raining outside my house with heavy wind! That's why I dislike rain,however my mom always said,"say Alhamdulillah when the rain comes" yeeaaaaa buuuuttt stiiiiillllll raaaaiiinn isss nnoottt myyy beessttfriiennndd. Oki peeps,catch ya laterrr! I wanna seek into my parents bedroom,ask some snacks if they hv some,cuz I'm kinda hungrry. Seeyyaa! Muchlove,nenna.
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On what I have decided
Tuesday, September 21, 20108:00 AM
hows life? busy with the craps, exams, and schools? same here! I almost can't breathe. Alhamdulillah, I only have 1 assignment to do (out of 7 assignments) and 2 presentations as well. I'm looking forward for my holiday with Denicu to HK (I know I am little overbearing or pompous in here hahaaha but going to HK was my last year wishlist/2009's resolution n it will come true very soon! Insya Allah) Wish me luck there peeps, since September is a well-known month for typhoon in HK and I don't know yet if its Autumn (Fall) season already or not.
Talking about me (Oh yes, a truly narcissistic over here, lights please).. *drum roll* I'm wearing Hijab right now. It's been 2 weeks I believe, because I started about 2 days before Eid Fitr (yes, I did not mention you on the last post). And if you ask me the reasons why I'm wearing hijab right now, I even don't know too :p it just came naturally. Okay, so on Wednesday, I was about came back to Indonesia and I wanted to surprised my mom (just playing around first, you know me lah) and in the Changi airport, everybody was so kind and nice with me. I was like, "Woaa"-- Landed in Jakarta, my mom,dad,brother, and driver were picked me up, I meant it was something rarely happen because the one who always picked up me was either my brother alone, my driver alone, or my dad alone. And the reaction when they saw me with Hijab? "WOAHAHAHIHIHIWOOAA" like literally. My brother a.k.a my number 1 fan (woooott woot) was approached me first and said, "Are you really sure? DO YOU? if it so Alhamdulillah then!WOAHAHAHHIHIHI" I did not know how to respond but the first thing I said was, "Yes, sure...do you like me like this?" and he was said, "REALLY DO SIS!". In the car, my mom was asking me if I'm really sure with this decision because she knows me better than anyone else besides God, and I dont know why I said I am really sure and I felt 'yes this is the time'.
Okay, so among closest friends and family, I am better known for my crazzy-ness, not serious, laugh out loud, cheerful, and always showing my skins. That was why at first ALL OF THEM were not sure of what I've decided (hahaha even me). "Are you truly really honestly sureee? you cannot behave like before! thats not so you", my aunty said, but the more I got rejection or unstoppable questions from people and peeps, the more I believe for what I have decided-the more I become comfortable with what I wear.
How about my first day of school? everyone was like "WOOA YOUU?!Congratulations!" and I was like "Err yap" hahaha, trully I did not know how to react. To be honest, before wearing hijab I have lots of question that I asked myself and my friends around me. The questions like...Do I really want it? Do I really can handle it? Do my friends will accept me and still hangout with me? How about the acceptance from people?The judgements? How about the career opportunity and love life? Do boys really see me the way I am now? and so on. The doubt and fears were scares me out the most. I don't mind with the clothes because I don't see the burden of it (at least I can layering and mix and match). Until I asked my friends (FYI, most of my friends are not Indonesian and not muslims), I asked some questions like, "Do you still want to hangout with me like before? Do you feel shame being with me?" Surprisedly, they were more supportive than I thought (than my family's response hahaha) they were,"We love you from inside-outside-right-left-any side, and wearing hijab will give you security feelings and you will represent what Islam is,cuz you will recognize as a muslim and thats a good point though, you don't have to worry because we love you as 'you' we never leave you,heck why on earth we will leave you for? otherwise you look prettier with hijab :)" They was said that they will miss my wavy hair and Jill one of my classmates was joking,"I know Im gonna miss your hair but at least I've seen it already!hahaha" I was like....blessed :) thanks God for giving me nice friends!
For these two weeks, I feel more and more and more thankful to God. I am not that religious but I am willing and want to learn. I have flaws and I am not that 'kind or nice' you know, am still a human after all...but this hijab is a self reminder for myself. Sometimes, when there was a time I want to 'gossiping' I was like....err hold on Inez, hehe. I know I cannot be naughty like before, I cannot attend clubs with cekci-cekci clothes anymore, I have to reduce my negative thoughts, I have to behave, etc....well this is like a Jihad, and am hoping for Allah's bless :)
I know that people also said that I have to change my attitude (it includes my personality) but i think one by one,slowly. I might change the way I behave but for my giggles personality, I think...emmm hahaha. You will miss my laugh you know! so not lah...
For fashion, Im trying to be modest and following the Islamic rules but also to stay true to my personal style. I love to wearing maxi dresses, jeans, etc. Im thinking to have a fashion blog, I dont know yet, Im thinking of tumblr and have one for fashion blog or just use lookbook?
Lastly, I'm still learning. I do have mistake,I will make mistakes...but mistakes mean learning. Learning means priceless!
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the details,yes DETAILS!
Saturday, September 11, 201010:37 AM
minal aidzin walfaidzin,hpy eid fitr all :) finally after 3 times in a row I couldn't back to Indonesia, now finally I could celebrate eid fitr with my big family. That's how precious and priceless the moments are.
On the first day, I was woke up late cuz I couldn't get enough of sleep due to helping mommy for our open house. I was late for eid prayer cuz my brother was in the bathroom (unlogical reason I know, but's true indeed). Then, started from our relatives came to house one by one. Oh yes, the kids from I-dont-know-where-they-came-from hehehe were coming to our house for Angpao ;) It was like more than hundred of kiddos! my uncles were giving the angpao with full of excitement cuz they all were remembered when they were youngsters (used to be young,hehe). After that, mom-dad-and me had to go to Pak Hatta's open house and Pak Ical's open house. When I was in Pa Hatta's house, my dad was introduced me to his journalists and reporters' young friends :) they were all nice and asking me to tk pictures ;)
Back to home, friends of my dad came like woaaaah -_- mba Onah was off from her duty, so we 'the gadis2',ibu2, and my driver had to pleased the guests like non-stop. Because, I had to stay away from the stoves or troubles might come hehee,my jobs were greeted them,giving the cakes and drinks, had conversations and so on -,- . I also had to greeted the guests that were Japanese,Filipino,n Korea cuz my mom couldn't understand their english that clear (they were talking japaninglish :)). Overall, they have invited me to come to their place to have a dinner :) and my dad was surprised cuz he thought that I was a bad host for them -_____________-"
Day 1 ended by my dad's plans plan: mudik to eyang putri in Cirebon and trip around Java by car with all Sumatranese family but unfortunately my mom refused it cuz she was too tired. Huhu I miss my eyang so much :'(
ps: yes, my Sumatranese family's (dad's side) relationship with my Javanese family's (mom's side) soooo tight and closed. The different hard edge cultures didn't bother us to communicate hihihi, even tho sometimes the Javanese family were kinda shocked with the Sumatranese jokes that are so straight forward and harsh hahaha.
There were only couple guests that came to our house, so all could relax. I had a guest that succesfully made my heart beat faster,hahaha. If my friends read this you just have to be shut up hahaha. Then, dad asked me to come along with him, uncle and datuk to watch Public Enemy at PS. I was lazy but I remembered that x,s,m,l has it store at PS (hehe -_-). I just realized that the story was about Bonnie and Clyde hihihi. Four of us were sleeping at the studio, cuz when the movie was over, I could see all of them were sleeping behind the blankets.
Next, our destination was going to Fish Market and when we arrive there, the shop were closed. My dad was sad because since yesterday he wanted to eat clams and all the fish markets that offered the best seafood in town were closed due to Eid Fitr.
So four of us were heading to Sentul, to celebrate my cousin birthday. In the car, I was the only girl (and the cutest,noted that! hehe) so I was the object of their bullied-conversation. My uncle said," Ai nez kasian eyang cirebon kao tu, uda cucung siko' dak biso baso jawo, idak lebaranan d sano, gek jadi apo kao na tu...ha pa kabaknya hahaha,muko cem mamak kao...tapi muncung mirip nian sama nona zubaedah ha-ha, ato cam makcik galo kau na tu"
bullied on why I couldnt speak and understand Javanese language. Hey! at least I can say proudly: siji loro telu papat :p
My dad said, " Iyooo, uda gitu sekola d sekolanyo preman, pantai barat pulak...orang di kato pegi ke Ivy League,pake coat ado salju,denger lagu orkestra,macam aku dulu bae lah...si inez lah ini di LA high school,makin preman jiwo dio: handphone dicuri orang 2 kali d sano hahaha,denger lagu dangdut orang maduro: hiphop,sekolahnya cakap inggris tapi grammarnya orang spanish"
bullied on why I studied in that high school.
My datuk said, "Jadi na tu, kau tinggal d Singapur sekarang ni, deket ang mo kio na? arab st? ocat? ato mano? nanti klo aku kesano kau ku enjuk kari ma prata be
" --- 3rd
bullied on my disoriented place in Singapore.
ps: for translation, I think you could understand ;)
ffffuussshhh, arrived in Sentul I was like "thank God" hehehe. The cousins and the kids were so hypercative, the ibu2 were talkactive, the bapak2 were playing band. While me and my dad were ranting about the foods because both of us were hungry :p
I was remember when my little nephew asked me, "Tante Inez, om yang kemaren itu mana tante?yang ituuuu tuuu.."
aaaa feels like want to pinch her cheeks!
happy Eid Fitr!,
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"sorry i cannot hear you,im kinda busy"
Monday, September 6, 201010:41 AM
its been a month I left you with my last post and I forgot to say happy Ramadhan Mubarak for those who celebrate it :)
how's life? I hope you can through all the happiness with joyful and sadness with tough hearts. Me? though the heavy tasks, bunch of assignments, and never ending dramas are bitching around, I'm still grateful because am still can jumping and hopping like bunnies day by day.
Someone also has put a smile on me, making my Monday even greater! tee-hee ;)
ps: Im in guilty because of my massive retail therapies as the bad solutions of solving the chaotic dramas made by the backstabber queens toward 'us' hihi,need help -_- btw I want to shout out this: "Hong Kong I'm coming!!!" :)
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Friday, August 6, 20102:28 AM
my mood? u can check my recent playlist -,-
mixte moods. i just wanna go to union station subway in fall or tk me to nyc,pls. sigh. tastes n feels the same feeling like bfor. tuhs tihs.
anw, saya akan kembali k jkt dalam seminggu.
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judulnya: iya aku bakal sering balik (judul opo iki hihihohohehe)
Wednesday, July 28, 20109:02 AM
It's so creepy. c-r-e-e-p-y (biar kayak ce i en te a) when every single day I found out that all of us are still in one chain, one solid link in the blurry scenes. No wonder there's an idiom : World is too small to be true, world is too small to believed.
The best part? it makes me realized that we are socially individual well beings.
btw, today is my dad's 48th day of reducing his smoking habit (by medicines + band + super strong fundamental passion to quit smoke). Muahaha, everyone knows that he is a truly believer "In smoke we trust". No one can beats him, so when he decides to quit smoking for seriously (before he was just sayin,fusss fusss) it's a va va voom :)
I have a bunch of ideas,plans,loves,trips,and surprises toward these 2 next following months. Oh how I will love you August-September (back sound,me singing earth,wind,& fire's song: ba de ya! dancing in september! ba de ya! golden dreams were shiny days!)
kisses-huggies and ;)
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